Don't Get Too Comfortable

Have you ever felt uncomfortable in your own skin?  Like suddenly the "you" that had always been didn't fit anymore?  Maybe uncomfortable isn't the right word, maybe it's more like lost.  Like the outside of you is the same, but both your surroundings and your beliefs are changing or being questioned.  I have faith, but lately have still been very unsure.  My walk hasn't been disrupted, instead maybe the path itself has veered slightly.  I am continuing to be blown away by all of the changes in my life.  This is a whole new world.  Maybe this is the real world.  I hope not.  This is like some halfway point.   I'm still in a bubble, but this bubble is not naive.  Choices are made every second of every day, as they always have been.  These choices, though, seem more significant.  Is it terrible to surround yourself with people making bad choices?  Sometimes I think that there is no way that it can be good.  However, I can see from their mistakes that I don't want to go down that road.   I hope that this sense of newness wears off soon, not just for me, but for everyone.  Maybe once we've been here a while, everything wont be so intense.  That's one thing I'm praying for.   It's all starting to sink in.  This IS my life now.  It's not just summer camp; it's not going to end.  This is for real, for good and for bad, and I'm just trying to deal with it.