Friday, August 1, 2008

Hooligans...I like that word

"What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?" - Unknown

This is a question that has plagued my mind since someone asked it of me a few weeks ago.  I had seen the quote numerous times and found it to be wonderfully inspirational, yet I had never taken the time to truly answer it for myself.  Now that I ponder it, I see how many things I haven't done for fear of failure.  Maybe this is because I have failed so many times before.  I know in my heart, though, that it is detrimental for me to live this way.  I have to get over this fear!  But to answer the question, there is so much that I would do if I knew it would turn out for the best.  To start with I guess I would tell everyone my feelings for them, send the letters that are just sitting in my room, just let how I feel be out in the open.  I have issues with holding things in.  I often think it would be easier for all parties involved if I just kept my mouth shut.  Recently, someone has helped me to speak my mind; sometimes, it works fine, but often it just leads to arguments.  Then I shut up again and pretend I don't care.  Other than that, maybe I'd give a career in music a shot.  If I couldn't fail, I'd have a record deal right now, but that's not the case... So that's something I really wrestle with.  A huge number of people fail in that business.  So for now I'm working on opening up... and maybe one day I'll have a recording contract and hit album... and I'll make sure it's on vinyl of course ;)

2 comments:

The Seventh Son said...

Id like to ask you if not succeeding in your opinion is failure, music is not something you can fail at, you may not earn a living through your production of music, but whats the real point of your music. If you write a song. The you succeeded in writing a song. You could I guess not sell enough records to be a successful business person. But the music isnt about the money.

me said...

I will never fail at music. However, I can fail at getting a record deal or even reaching people with my music. And no the music isn't about the money. It's my love.