Unsaid

So many things are left unsaid in my life.  I write letters and never send them.  I don't really speak how I feel.  I just hold everything in.  I know it's a problem.  I know it's a flaw.  I try to fix it.  I just don't succeed.  I feel like the only time I really, truly get anything out, it's in writing.  I just wish that sometime I could tell someone, actually tell them, how I really feel.  Maybe it's you, maybe it's me, but somewhere we have a communication problem.  I just can't seem to connect.  I don't think it's that I'm uncomfortable, because I could write to you and it wouldn't be a problem.  But I don't want to do that, I don't want to let myself.  I feel like that's just a cop out.  I don't know if that's valid or justified but I feel like it is.  I feel like this is something I need to make myself overcome.  For completeness, for myself, for healing.