so many whys and not enough reasons. so many tries and not enough getting done. i want to. i need to. i yearn to. i question.  ever in thought, in wonder, in wonderlust.  for once i want to break  free.  i've set myself up to have nothing to show. i've placed my heart far below, the depths of which i just want to seek, i want to know just how far i can go. please. i want to go. forward motion. anywhere but here.